I have always been someone who saw a mistake as an epic failure. Even small ones, I will over-think and beat myself up over. When I make a big mistake, WOWZER…that really throws me into a tailspin!
One of the themes that I will continue to mention here is this “season of growth” for me. I am working to come to terms with the fact that I cannot be perfect, I have flaws, and I make mistakes. One step in learning to love myself is accepting those mistakes, learning from them, forgiving myself for them, and then letting go.
Luckily life continually brings these opportunities. Six months ago, I went through a break-up. I had been in a long-term relationship, one I didn’t see taking to the next level but also one I didn’t have the courage to change. The break-up left me completely broken-hearted and questioning so much about myself. I will go on record and say that I was an emotional wreck. Am I so flawed that no one will want to be with me? Anyone who has ever been through a gut-wrenching break-up understands the emotional toll it takes and the kind of questions you ask yourself. As I started to emerge from this swirl of emotions, I could see things more clearly, and I realized that it had not been a healthy relationship. I had been in a relationship that had taken an already fragile self esteem to a lower level. One thing I had to do was forgive myself for placing myself in that position. The next hurdle is to become a healthier person in order to prevent making this same mistake twice. “The first time is a mistake, the second time is a choice.” -author unknown
Thank you for joining me on this journey!