In the not so distant past, I spent some time repeating the following prayer, “Sometimes when I look in the mirror I am not too happy with what I see. Please let me see the way you made me, beautiful and perfect, just as I am. Help me to hold this image in my mind and heart as I follow my life’s path. Allow others to witness your light shining through me as I walk with confidence, grace, and a smile on my face.” I am not sure when or how it began that I didn’t like what I saw. But I know at one point when faced with staying down or getting back up, I came up fighting. I was and still am determined to make positive changes in my life. Today in church, the pastor spoke about enemies and forgiveness. He had us look ourselves in the mirror and see that sometimes we are our own worse enemy and realize that we must practice self-forgiveness. Wow…this exercise literally brought tears to my eyes.
I am not “there” but I have come a long way. I have learned that I must show myself the same grace and kindness that I would show my closest friend. As humans, the negative things in life require more of our thoughts. It is the negative that is a threat to our survival; so instinctually it requires more of our attention. I have read that it takes 5 positive thoughts to balance out 1 negative. Every day I work at driving those negative thoughts out of my head. There is no mass exodus, they tend to leave very slowly…I can be patient while being determined though.