90% of the time I am not only content, but very happy.. enthused about the direction of my life.. love who I am becoming.. grateful how things have played out.
10% of the time I wonder how did I end up here.. what is wrong with me… why can’t I get my shit together.
90% of the time I am happy with this lifestyle.. I feel better than I have ever felt.. look better than I ever looked.. and am physically and mentally stronger than I have ever been.
10% of the time I feel restless.. like I am missing out on something.. I feel a sense of isolation.
90% of the time I feel empowered.. I think I can take on the world.. I feel like a warrior who has tackled some of my biggest fears.
10% of the time I wonder who am I kidding.. I feel weak.. I feel defeated.
90% of the time I smile knowing how blessed I am… for I have wonderful family and friends.. I have been mentored by some of the best.. and I have been given many gifts.
10% of the time I feel sad.. I feel cheated.. I feel lonely.
That 10% isn’t pretty, is it? That 10% can be excruciating at times. If ever I let the 10% control my life.. everything gets out of whack. If I focus on that 10%.. those numbers can actually get completely flipped.
I am thinking we all may have that 10% in our lives. I consider them my “demons”. Should we be 100%, 100% of the time? Is it realistic? I don’t really think so.. without the 10%, would we even recognize how wonderful the 90% is?
What are your thoughts? Where would you say you are? Do you ever make decisions based on that 10%? Do you focus on that 10%? How does your life change if you do so?