Living At 90%

90% of the time I am not only content, but very happy.. enthused about the direction of my life.. love who I am becoming.. grateful how things have played out.

10% of the time I wonder how did I end up here.. what is wrong with me… why can’t I get my shit together.

90% of the time I am happy with this lifestyle.. I feel better than I have ever felt.. look better than I ever looked.. and am physically and mentally stronger than I have ever been.

10% of the time I feel restless.. like I am missing out on something.. I feel a sense of isolation.

90% of the time I feel empowered.. I think I can take on the world.. I feel like a warrior who has tackled some of my biggest fears.

10% of the time I wonder who am I kidding.. I feel weak.. I feel defeated.

90% of the time I smile knowing how blessed I am… for I have wonderful family and friends.. I have been mentored by some of the best.. and I have been given many gifts.

10% of the time I feel sad.. I feel cheated.. I feel lonely.

That 10% isn’t pretty, is it?  That 10% can be excruciating at times.  If ever I let the 10% control my life.. everything gets out of whack.  If I focus on that 10%.. those numbers can actually get completely flipped.

I am thinking we all may have that 10% in our lives.  I consider them my “demons”.  Should we be 100%, 100% of the time?  Is it realistic? I don’t really think so.. without the 10%, would we even recognize how wonderful the 90% is?

What are your thoughts?  Where would you say you are?  Do you ever make decisions based on that 10%?  Do you focus on that 10%?  How does your life change if you do so?

From here on.. she will lead

From here on.. she will lead

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